And I'm Free.....Free Fallin'

Mark fell today. It wasn't anything that anyone could have necessarily prevented. It was inside the house and he didn't hit his head. He didn't get the foot of the recliner pushed all the way in when he got up. So when he went back to sit down, he didn't see it (got a little blind spot with that bad eye) and down he went. I wasn't here. He laughed when he told me and said that he told my mom that I'd be freaking out. Ummm...yeah!

I had a good outing today with my Camille. We went wedding gown shopping and had lunch. It was nice to get out for a few hours. I love my Mark more than anything, and I love taking care of him, but I still need a break every once in a while. Of course, he was on my mind the entire time I was gone. My mom said he was missing me pretty badly. Before I left he kept asking me how long I was going to be gone and said, "I miss you already." That does my heart good!

He was pretty active today. He fell, took a shower, and took a walk around the block. My mom said she was ready to die by the time they got all the way around. But it was VERY good for him to do. And he complained about the cold every second of it. He's lost 30 pounds, so he has no more insulation. He keeps turning the thermostat up to 73. I walk by and turn it back down to 70. Whenever he's in the family room he turns on the fireplace. Quite the opposite from before.

Mark had a heart-to-heart with my mom and cried again. He's so worried about me having to do everything and being a burden to his family. He feels like a "loser" because he can't do anything physically and can't make sense mentally. I know my Mark is in there and is trying DESPERATELY to get out. I can't imagine how frustrating that must be. We'll just take it one painstakingly slow day at a time. Nothing else we can do.