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Thursday, January 19, 2012

The Countdown Starts...

We had the pretrial preliminary hearing yesterday. I don't know how many of you have ever been to a hearing in the court system. It's interesting, educational and entertaining. You don't have a true scheduled time. Anyone that is scheduled to appear before the judge that day shows up at 1:30 and you sit and wait until your name is called for your case. We've usually been done within the first hour. Yesterday we sat through almost three hours of degenerate after degenerate. People make some of the stupidest decisions. It's quite sad, really. I want to take my children there before they start Junior High so that they can see how important it is to make good decisions.

Anyway....I digress. The trial is scheduled for February 13, 14, 16 and 17, from 8:30 to 5:00 each day. The morning of the first day will be used for jury selection, so the actual trial won't get started until after lunch. We would appreciate any and all support we could get from our local friends and family. It's difficult to be in the same room with those people when it's just a hearing. The trial will be excruciating as we go through everything with a fine-toothed comb. I was amazed at how affected I was by Dr. Gaufin's testimony at the preliminary. I'm sure it will be just as difficult, if not more so, to hear them try and defame my husband and somehow try to get out of their accountability. So that is why we need strength in numbers.

Once again, we appreciate all of you. Your prayers, kind thoughts, best wishes, sacrifices of time and finances, on our behalf. It has almost made this bearable. If you have any questions about the trial, just leave a comment, or email me, or message me on Facebook, and I'll get to them as quickly as I can. We love y'all!

Blessing of the Week: support

Friday, January 13, 2012


I know I've been slacking in the posting department. There have been a lot of down days at our house. Because I LIVE this life everyday, sometimes it's just too much to sit down and write about it and relive it. But the therapist and I decided that it's probably helpful for me to get the emotions out. Because the don't come out, otherwise.

I hate to be "Wo is me" all the time. That's just not me. But most weeks we live in pretty dismal spirits. It seems to be a lot of our life lately. We've got all of us trying to adjust to our circumstances and trying to figure out and understand where to go from here. We want our lives back.

The trial is approaching and it's really taking it's toll on our states of mind. Mark especially. He's has such anxiety and worry that he doesn't sleep and the body tremors start. Lack of sleep adds to the depression. You can't even imagine what Mark and I go through every day. And I don't share my thoughts and feelings with him because it will make his burden worse. I'm shouldering everything for this family. His worries, pain and fear. The girls' worries, pain and fear. My own worry, pain and fear. That's a lot for my weak, tired shoulders to bare. But I hurt and worry the most about Mark. There have been some days in the last couple of weeks that I wondered if he'd make it through the day. I'm out of answers. I'm out of positive encouragements. I'm out of energy. I'm out of care. It truly is too much to bare. And adding in 65 hour work weeks isn't helping. So when I knew I couldn't handle anymore yesterday, I left work early and met with the therapist. I was able to cry all the way from work to BYU, so I actually seemed pretty put together by the time I got there. But it didn't take long for the waterworks to start up again. After talking about MANY things, he asked me at the end that if there was ANYTHING I could ask for myself, what would it be?

I told him I wanted my husband to be made whole.

Blessing of the Week: a shoulder to cry on

Sunday, January 1, 2012

New Year, New Life

We aren't a very exciting bunch when it comes to celebrating New Year's. We're just old, tired and have to go to church the next day. But as Mark and I lay in the bed last night, I went through our day of exactly one year ago.

Remember this?

Sometimes it seems as if it were an eternity ago....and sometimes it seems as if it were yesterday. What a miraculous day that was. My husband walked out of the hospital from something he wasn't expected to survive. As we held each other and talked about the crazy road we've been down these last 12 months, we cried. It's very difficult to always see the miracles in your life. Sometimes you have to own the misery and loss. We still mourn our losses and look forward to what this new year MAY, hopefully, bring to our little family. We can only pray and plead to our Father in Heaven that He will be generous in pouring out His blessings.

Blessing of the Week: new beginnings